this is one of those days again. emo.

i watched ASAP last sunday and it surprised me seeing maricar reyes (for those pipol who don’t knw her yet, she’s the pond’s girl who got involved w/ hayden kho’s recent sex scandal/issue). unlike katrina halili, who is a “palaban” type of girl, maricar looks so demure and naive. one who cannot even hurt a mosquito. but what makes me write this entry? it wasn’t because of her being so naive and yet getting involved in such a mess, but it was because of her courage to face the public w/ poise. and bouncing back from that huge trouble she went thru. i can see in her eyes though the pain, the uncertainty, the nervousness of facing the crowd. for all we know and care, ppol are judgmental (just like how i judge ppol in general as judgmental).

i gave her a two-thumbs up for showing up in the show. coz bottomline is, no matter how or what she does, she cannot just hide forever. she has, at one point, had to face that fear of being rejected, judged by ppol. afterall she’s a celebrity even before that happened. and i think it was more of an advantage to her that she just showed up silently and get back to her feet slowly. not that i’m saying that katrina’s done it wrongly. or that women should just shut up if her dignity’s been tarnished. my point is it would have been better to do it with poise. and maricar has done it in such a remarkable way.

who’s to blame?is it the media’s fault for blowing the issue out of proportion? is it Sen. revilla’s exposure of the issue? is it katrina’s all-out-war against Hayden? well, obviously, kasalanan nung ngpakalat ng video.

lesson learned, never ever videotape such intimate moments just to avoid this kind of thing from happening.

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love.

i saw my friend’s pix in her facebook. (finally, nghimo na jud kog facebook na acct). i saw her and her husband’s pix. so sweet. bisan before, bryt na jud ni akong amiga. and so her husband. they’re both smart. u can see it in how they took pix. naay sense. she looks so hapi. m hapi for her. but at the same time jealous that she’s hapi. bad au ko nga friend. huhu…m just hapi that she found her one true love and jealous of the fact that until now, wla pa japon ko kita sa akong true love’s kiss. (hehe…korni)… watever!

m just going to wait pa. still have time. while waiting, mglingaw2x sa ko. kiat dnhe, kiat didto. life afterall is an adventure. o d cge go.

just surfing the net today. i happend to spot new FS updates & new pix uploads. tsk3x… it amzed me seeing my old friends now staying abroad…canada, UK, US, Singapore blah-blah-blah…

while m hapi for them, there’s that feeling of insecurity that’s somehow growing inside of me.envious that they are now living a happy life, under that assumption that money makes ppol hapi. we’ll i guess it’s safe to say that they’re earning more. kya nga nag-aabroad mga tao to earn euro or dollars, nd peso.

hmm…m enjoying my life though here in cebu. working. usahay laag2x. but most of the time working. there’s still lots of places i haven’t explored yet here in cebu. but i think it would come in handy if m earning euro/dollar.

bsta puhon. i’ll go places. not bcoz i dont like staying sa pinas. but more of that dream to go beyond the boundaries that this country has. with all honesty, 8 sometimes frustrates me getting stuck here in cebu. if only not bcoz of my friends here, dugay rako nilayas. hehe…

i refused to believe that someone is destined to be only at this or that level. i am the master of my own life. i can make things happen if only i put myself into it. grrr… don’t wanna think about this muna. ciao!

i have never thought & have never felt so old until yesterday when i joined JG Summit Holdings’ recruitment for their training program. darn! the news paper ad clearly indicated that they’re looking for newly grads or graduating studes to qualify the program. but me being stubborn & not wanting to be just discourage that easily, i still went there. and boom! reality slapped my face real hard. almost everyone of the attendees were graduating studes (although of course, it doesn’t follow that they’re all younger than I am). but knowing that i’ve been working for 4yrs now, that makes me older.

i took the 10-item IQ test w/c even made me realized na gitayaan na jud akong utok. piskot! i managed to smile though & deal w/ the soooo embarassing experience as if it’s just a matter-of-fact.

the facilitator allowed me to take the test but not for the training program. if ever i pass the exam (w/c i doubt by the way), they’ll recommend me for their China scholarship program. yeah ryt!

at least i tried. that’s all i can say. i haven’t lost anything, but just my dignity & pride & sacrificing less than 200 bucks for the taxi & gaining callous for wearing black shoes w/ heels that i was not used to.

buhay nga naman. mahirap mg-job hunting.

To My Friends Who Are……… SINGLE
Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But
if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it. Love can
make you happy but often it hurts, but love’s only special when you give it
to someone who is really worth it. So take your time and choose the best.

To My Friends Who Are……… NOT SO SINGLE
Love isn’t about becoming somebody else’s ‘perfect person.’ It’s about
finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be.

To My Friends Who Are……… PLAYBOY/GIRL TYPE
Never say ‘I love you’ if you don’t care. Never talk about feelings if they
aren’t there. Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart. Never look
in the eye when all you do is lie. The cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl is
to let her fall in love when he doesn’t intend to catch her fall and it works
both ways…

To My Friends Who Are……… MARRIED
Love is not about ‘it’s your fault’, but ‘I’m sorry.’ Not ‘where are you’,
but ‘I’m right here.’ Not ‘how could you’, but ‘I understand.’ Not ‘I
wish you were’, but ‘I’m thankful you are.’

To My Friends Who Are……… ENGAGED
The true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together but how
good you are for each other.

To My Friends Who Are……… HEARTBROKEN
Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to
go. The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.

To My Friends Who Are……… NAIVE
How to be in love: Fall but don’t stumble, be consistent but not too
persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand,
and get hurt but never keep the pain.

To My Friends Who Are……… POSSESSIVE
It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else but
it’s more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.

To My Friends Who Are……… AFRAID TO CONFESS
Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when
someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you
love has no idea how you feel.

To My Friends Who Are……… STILL HOLDING ON
A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love, only to
find out in the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn’t worth it.
If he isn’t worth it now, he’s not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now. Let go…..

TO ALL MY FRIENDS…..
My wish for you is a man/woman whose love is honest, strong, mature,
never-changing, uplifting, protective, encouraging, rewarding and unselfish..    ^_^

==>horoscope for Feb7,2009…perfect fit kaau. huhu…

Today you need to put the past behind you. Accept what it was and try to learn from it. There is no way to change it, so you need to settle in and be comfortable with it. What you did (or didn’t do) will fade as time progresses, so you need to look ahead and focus on the future. Your patience is strong and it will get you through the rough parts. The people who love you will offer you great distractions too, so meet up with your friends. Remind yourself of all the bright things ahead.