hehehehe… title pa lng daan la na lingaw paminawon. well, btaw oi. la ko lain mahuna-hunaan i-title.

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Feb.1, 2006 - bibo kaau mi sa office kay naka-receive si kuya matt og gift certificate from KillerBee, included ana a dozen of dunkin donuts. hehehehe… kami na sad nakahurot. mao ra to. bibo lang jud. naa mi pics sad sa ako mga officemates. yagit kaau ko. klaro kaau eyebags. hehehe… nothing unusual about it anyway. busa magpa-face lift ra ko. hahaha… magpa-retoke sa akong mga eyebags.

naa ra mi tanan sa office… mga gwapa… (apil si kuya matt… hehehehe..)

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ummm… teka, going senti muna ako ha? nah, just realized duol na sad ang valentine’s day. ugh! waaaa… while convincing myself na I should be happy kay single pa ko (EVER!!!), ambot na lng jud. Valentine’s day’s one of those days that suck.

well, weekdays mana so i’ll be in the office whole day. ummm… unsa ako buhaton? ummm… well, get myself busy sa work. yeah right… work… work… work… just like an ordinary day.

kung natunong cguro na Sunday, magkatuluga na lng ko (JUST LIKE BEFORE)…aahhhh… i hate this day jud. but on SUnday, i’m planning to go swimming at 6am, do my laundry, and then…ummm…matulog (?)… most probably.

just like this…yeah, just like this

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busy kaau mi sa office. after work which usually ends at 9pm na, drain na ko. ok lng. mas ok hinoon. at least la nko lain time maghuna-huna sa uban butang. but then again, i do still have time to smile. ako pa sad. hehehe…

cge out to lunch muna kami. til then.

         
  A Special Letter For Women…
 
  “The Ten Most Dangerous
  Mistakes YOU Probably
  Make With Men—
  And What To Do About It…”
 

 
  Here Are The Top Ten Reasons Why
  Women Keep Themselves From Living
  The Love Life Of They’re Dreams—
  And How To Make Sure You Avoid Every One Of Them…
 

  MISTAKE #1: Betting Your
  Love Life On His “Potential”

 
              Do you know any women who want the man
  they’re dating to behave differently?

           Of course you do.

           And just like me, I’m sure you have friends
  who date guys who don’t have much going for them
  or who don’t treat them very well.

           Somehow these women always have an excuse
  for the guy’s shortcomings.

           What’s going on here?

           It’s actually very simple.

           Women (and men) don’t base their choices of
  men on how "nice" or "good" someone is to them day-to-day.

           Women choose the men they do because they
  feel a powerful GUT LEVEL ATTRACTION for them.

           And guess what?

           Some women will continue to put up with a
  guy that doesn’t treat them very well.

           Sometimes for months or years…

           But why in the world would a woman do that!?

           Well, to put it simply, they confuse the
  strong attraction they feel for the guy with a deeper "connection".

           Women who do this are doomed to end up
  in failed relationships with the "wrong" guys.

           How do I know?

           Because I’ve seen it at least a hundred
  times…

           And because I’ve been this guy in the past
  myself.

           Thinking back on past dating and relationships
  I’ve had, I was selfish and didn’t offer much.

           I’m amazed the women put up with me.

           But they did…all the while hoping that
  I would somehow change. 

           The women I dated hoped I’d change.

           The only thing they saw in me that led
  them to want to keep me around was the "potential"
  they saw in me to share my feelings and communicate
  with them.

           The potential for something better and
  the potential for me to change and be a better
  lover, boyfriend, companion or whatever…

           The truth was, I was hopelessly bad at these
  things at the time.

           And more importantly, I wasn’t even at a place
  in my life where I knew how to or was interested
  in developing a deep and committed relationship -
  with ANYONE.

           But deep down these women believed that if
  they tried hard enough, that it would make up
  for what was lacking.

           They believed that I could become someone else
  with them…. and that this would be easy for us
  both.

           Talk about a losing battle.

           It doesn’t make a lot of "logical" sense…

           But until you accept that lots of women do
  this AND that YOU could be doing it on some level,
  you’ll NEVER have the success with men that you
  choose and want.

  MISTAKE #2: Assuming You
  “Get” Men & Their Psychology

           Men are different from women.

           You need to accept this fact, and deal with it.

           When a woman sees a man, she can very quickly
  pick apart certain things about his style, body
  language, status and character that will tell her
  all kinds of things about him.

           Lot’s of women don’t even consciously see that
  they do this because the process is so obvious and
  simple for them. 

           But does the same apply for men?

           As you probably already know, men are generally
  more visual. 

           As a result, they often don’t understand
  non-verbal communication as well as women. 

           And men often lack what women have in emotional
  awareness and "intuition".

           Women don’t seem to remember this about men.

           So do men feel sexually attracted to w0men
  based just on looks? Or is something else going on?

           Well, after studying this topic for years now,
  and talking to thousands of men and women, I can
  tell you that men have their "attraction mechanisms"
  triggered by things OTHER than looks.

           Especially when it comes to longer term relationships.

           Looks just happen to be the most obvious way…

           But looks are NOT the most powerful.

           If you know how to use your body language AND
  communication correctly, you can make men feel
  the same kind of powerful sexual attraction to
  you that YOU feel when you see that hot, great
  looking guy that you got to know.

           But it’s not an accident.

           You have to LEARN how to do this.

           And ANY woman can learn how…

  MISTAKE #3: Pretending To
  Be Something For A Man

           In the desire to please a man, women are
  constantly doing things to get a man’s attention,
  to get him to like them or to make him more
  attracted or in love with them.

           Another HORRIBLE idea.

           Lots of women mistakenly think that doing
  unusual things to try and get a guys attention
  will make him magically see what a great catch
  they are and want to be with them.

           Wrong.

           Men YOU TRULY WANT are never attracted to
  the types of women who kiss up to them, make
  weak plays for affection or complain to get
  what they want… EVER.

        Don’t get me wrong here. Things like being
  sexy for a man or encouraging him to share his
  feelings can be good, but it has to be genuine,
  unselfish, and most of all timely. 

        You don’t have to act like an "easy" woman
  for men to like you, and you certainly don’t have
  to play like he’s some gift to the Earth.

           Doing these things actually works to subtly,
  at an subconscious level, lower your social status
  with a man, which has EVERYTHING to do with how
  he sees you as a woman.

           So if you think that making him more attracted
  to you means "playing to the man’s fantasies" from
  the start, think again.

           You’ll never succeed by looking for a man’s
  approval, finding your way into his heart through
  sex and not being yourself.

  MISTAKE #4: Sharing How You
  “Feel” Too Early With Him

           Another huge and unfortunate mistake that
  most women make with men is sharing how they
  "feel" too early on.

           Listen…

           Attractive, single, successful men are rare.

           They get a LOT of attention from women.

           Most women don’t realize this, but attractive men
  are being approached in one way or another all the
  time by women.

           And guess what?

           Attractive men have usually dated a lot of women.

           That’s right. They have EXPERIENCE.

           They know what to expect.

           And one thing that turns an attractive men off
  and sends him running away faster than just about
  anything…

           It’s a woman who starts saying "You know, I really,
  REALLY like you" after one or two dates.

           This signals to the man that you’re just like
  one of those "clingy" stereotype women who want
  to rush into a relationship and can’t control
  yourself from wanting a man to fulfill them and
  complete their lives.

           This does NOT spell ATTRACTION for a man.

           Don’t do it. Lean back. Relax.

           There’s a much better way…

  MISTAKE #5: Misreading The
  Important “Signals” That Men Send

           Men are constantly communicating how they
  feel about a woman and giving away big secrets
  about themselves.

           Most women don’t pay attention to these
  signals or recognize them for what they really
  are.

           The signals men send have 4 main levels:

  1) Social: Where the man is at in his own life -
  stability, confidence, direction

  2) Emotional: Whether or not he’s "emotionally
  available"

  3) Physical: If he’s attracted to you… and for
  what reasons

  4) Love State: If he’s open to building and growing
  a relationship in the future

           The funny thing is that men send signals in
  these areas completely on accident.

           That’s great news to women…

           Men can’t help it!

           You need to learn to recognize these signals to
  get anywhere serious with a man.

  MISTAKE #6: Relying On
  Your Natural Ability To
  Judge A Man’s Character

           People aren’t easy to figure out.

           Especially men.

           The last several years of my life I’ve
  spent hundreds of hours learning to understand
  people.

           I’ve studied peoples behavior, "inner
  psychology" and more specifically how they
  think and act when they’re dating.

           From what I’ve seen, both men and women
  have their own secret ways of saying things.

           But you can only see these secret
  communications if you know what to look for.

           Women communicate with hints, body
  language, sarcasm, and flirting when they’re
  first getting to know a man.

           They can either directly or indirectly
  let men know if they’re open to something
  more serious.

           Men are different.

           Men generally communicate with sarcasm,
  humor, cockyness and other "indirect" displays
  of status.

           VERY RARELY will a man be able to honestly
  communicate to a woman whether or not he’s
  ready or capable of developing a meaningful
  relationship. 

           Aside from their sexual interests, men
  send very indirect signals about where they’re
  at.

           If you don’t know how to read through the
  signals men send, then you’ll get the wrong
  message.

           Getting the wrong messages from men causes
  women more pain and heartache than any other
  issue around.

           You can avoid this pain if you learn to
  indentify a good man from a bad one.

  MISTAKE #7: Expecting A
  Relationship To Make You Happy

           A mistake I’ve seen women make is thinking
  a guy will change her life and make her happy
  and fulfilled.

           And sure, there are situations and relationships
  where this happens.

           But those are the exceptions, not the rule.

           Nothing says "Run!" to a man faster than
  hearing or sensing that a woman immediately
  wants him to take care of her.

           And the men who ARE looking for this kind
  of situation aren’t exactly the most healthy,
  loving, nurturing people out there.

           Think, "controlling, macho, or serious Mom Issues!"

           So let me be clear…

           I think it’s important that people help
  fulfill each other in their lives, whether
  it’s dating, a relationship, whatever.

           But if a woman communicates that she’s
  looking for a guy to take care of her, complete
  her, make her whole, and all that kind of
  stuff - it has a VERY negative effect on what
  the man will think of her.

           It doesn’t have to be spoken by the woman
  either…

           If a woman thinks or feels this way, the man
  will see it and pick up on it, regardless.

           This is arguably the worst thing a woman
  can do early on when dating a man.

           So what can you do as a woman?

           You can get the man interested and involved
  in your life in a more "natural" way, where
  he’ll be motivated to make you care about your
  happiness and fulfillment on his own.

           This is the only way it really works for
  people - male or female.

           Self-motivation is much stronger than external
  motivation.

           But you have to know how to create this situation
  with a man… and it rarely happens by accident.

  MISTAKE #8: Trying To “Convince”
  Him To Like You Or Love You

           What do most women do when they meet a man
  that they REALLY like… but he’s just not
  that interested or isn’t as serious?

           Right! They try to "convince" the man to
  feel differently.

           Well, I have news for you…

           YOU WILL NEVER CHANGE HOW A MAN "FEELS" WHEN
  IT COMES TO ATTRACTION!

           Never, ever, ever.

           You cannot convince a man to feel differently
  about you with "logic and reasoning".

           Think about it.

           If a man doesn’t "feel it" for you, how in
  the world do you expect to change that by being
  "reasonable" with him?

           But we all do it.

           Men are the worst at this by the way.

           They’re always complimenting women who
  don’t like them and buying them gifts.

           Women like the behavior sometimes, but it
  NEVER makes the woman like the man.

           She might enjoy what she gets out of it,
  but it doesn’t change the way she FEELS about him.

           When a man just isn’t interested, women
  will try and chase, compliment, convince and
  do their best to change his mind with logical
  and rational approaches.

           Bad idea. Another one that will never work.

  MISTAKE #9: Not Knowing
  What To Do In Each Type Of Situation

           A man has a clear idea of what he wants from
  a woman…

           And I don’t mean just sex.

           I know, it might be hard to believe, but
  if you’re out on a date with a man, he already
  has an idea of what he wants from you.

           And if you don’t know HOW to find this out,
  and you just sit there looking at him and flirting,
  or trying things you think will make him want you,
  he won’t help!

           If you don’t know what to do in each situation,
  you’ll probably screw it up… and LOSE EVERYTHING.

  MISTAKE #10: Not Getting Help

           This is the biggest mistake of all.

           This mistake keeps women from EVER having
  the kind of success and finding the kind of
  man and relationship that they truly want.

           I know, you don’t like to make yourself
  look weak or helpless. We don’t like to ask
  for help.

           Hey, I’ve been there myself.

           Let me tell you a little about me.

           Over the last few years it’s been hard to
  watch the women around me (even those I dated)
  struggle to understand the men they were
  attracted to or dating.

           It frustrated the hell out of me and I
  made the decision to do whatever it took to
  help the women I knew learn how to be successful
  with men and dating.

           Well, after a lot of hard work and doing all
  kinds of crazy things to learn the real-world
  truth about men and women, I finally figured
  things out for myself.

           I’ve read hundreds of books on psychology,
  human behavior, dating/relationship advice for
  men and women, love, attraction, communication,
  and more. The list goes on.

           I can now approach just about any situation
  with dating and feel confident and understand
  everything that’s going on in an interaction.

           Best of all, I’ve been able to share my
  knowledge and help women become more successful
  with men and dating.

           It’s been a very rewarding experience, and
  it’s how I became fascinated with the female
  perspective in the dating world.

           I’ve helped women get rid of that sick,
  insecure feeling… the one you get when you’re
  lonely, you’ve been hurt or lied to, or when a
  man you have feelings for says "he’s not ready".

           You don’t have to be afraid you might wind up
  being lied to, cheated on or that you’ll end up
  alone.

           …But the really great news is… after several years,
     helping woman after woman, I now publish a free email newsletter that teaches
  any woman how to DRAMATICALLY increase her success with men and dating.

           It’s free, there’s no obligation, I’ll never
     share you’re email address with anyone, and you can easily remove yourself
     with no hassles. (And no, I’ll never pull any of those tricks where I send
     you a bunch of unwanted junkmail when you try to remove yourself.)

           Of course, it even get’s better than that…

           In addition to my free email newsletter, I also
  have an amazing downloadable eBook that you can
  download right now and be reading in literally
  MINUTES.

           It’s JAM PACKED with dozens and dozens of
  specific strategies for overcoming your fears,
  meeting men, great ideas around first dates,
  cheat-proofing your relationships, and how to
  take things to a closer "emotional" and "physical"
  level smoothly and easily.

The Mentor and the Protégé
is a romantic pattern that’s about more than love for love’s sake. In
it, love grows out of deeper need to learn and understand other aspects
of your life through the teachings of someone else.

 
But, here’s the recurring pattern you may see in your relationships: Love isn’t the only thing you’re after.

You want power, success, attention, maybe even fame. You want to be
recognized, doted on, and adored for your talents. And the object of
your desire is the person best suited to provide you with these things
— a boss, a mentor, a teacher, or a troubled genius.

Similarly, the object of your affection can take the place of an absent
parent or role model, providing security and nurturance. Whatever the
reason, you’re likely to feel a boost to your self-image when you’re
with this person.

Just as this romantic pattern overpowers you, you
might wish to be overpowered by someone stronger, wiser, and more
accomplished than yourself. Your romantic pattern starts out innocently
enough. Did you recently take a job working for an amazing boss? Has a
teacher or mentor taken a special interest in your work? Maybe a
long-time family friend stopped by for a visit, and revealed a
fascinating side you’ve never seen before. The attention this person
gives you is just what you’re craving. From there, it’s not a huge leap
to falling in love.

Nganong gailogan daw ang mga laki?

Hahaha… for now, mao lang sa na akong makaingon. But seriously, I guess I have to rephrase the question. Dapat nganong gailogan ang UBAN mga laki? (Just to be a little bit more specific, though I know yagit kaau ni nga question.)

Actually, nakahuna-huna lang ko ani na butang kay gi-raise ni ni Kuya Matt na question. At first, kaingon jud ko nga yamats ba sad! Bagag kubal! Laki? Ilogan? Oh well, i guess in some other (very few) instances. Hehehe… masi kaau.

Bitaw, i won’t argue about the validity of the question. Didto na lng ko sa ngano man jud gailogan. Ana ko na cguro ilogan jud kung deserving ang laki na ilogan. I mean tagsa ra man jud karon ang mga but-an na laki. So rare that girls just go gaga over them, the very few. Another thing, kung master jud mangatik ang lalaki, ay sure na… daghan jud mag-apas. Ikaw ba sad atikon? Labi na choi. Tsk tsk tsk…

Ummm…unsa pa ba? Ambot, for now, mao pa na akong gakahuna-hunaan na mga rason. I don’t know if it’s because gamay ra jud ang mga reasons ngano or la lang jud ko lain gakadumduman na reasons.

If you got some more ideas, feel free to comment. Ur most welcome

I never thought that I like black… tsk tsk tsk…

A friend forwarded me message about the new TICKLE.com personality test. It was about colors and the usual psycho-analytical questions (whatever they call it).

Answered 19 questions and well, the result? Huhuhu… my TRUE color’s black. Ngeks!

I like blue and as far as I’m concerned (been doing research about it), Capricorns are associated with BLUE color, and not BLACK.

Well, i like black sometimes coz it defines elegance and formality, but i like blue better.

Got this researched… the meaning of BLACK. some of the things i found out are scaring me. you know na, like black is evil, wicked… huhuhu… but i don’t think i am that much. Creepy!

Black

Black is associated with power, elegance, formality, death, evil, and
mystery.

Black is a mysterious color associated with fear and the unknown (black
holes). It usually has a negative connotation (blacklist, black humor,
‘black death’). Black denotes strength and authority; it is considered
to be a very formal, elegant, and prestigious color (black tie, black
Mercedes). In heraldry, black is the symbol of grief.

Black gives the feeling of perspective and depth, but a black background
        diminishes readability. A black suit or dress can make you look thinner.
        When designing for a gallery of art or photography, you can use a black
        or gray background to make the other colors stand out. Black contrasts
        well with bright colors. Combined with red or orange – other very
        powerful colors – black gives a very aggressive color scheme.

Dec. 24, 2005… ’twas raining, but not so hard. Papa did text me earlier to just drop by his workplace at 6pm so we could go home together. I just finished packing my things up for the month-long break (but i was actually thinking of not coming back to work anymore… perhaps, i’ll find myself a new job).

While I was on my way, just walking, I thought Papa should not be working anymore. He’s still young though. He’s in his late forties (my sis often scold me for not exactly remembering how old my parents are). I’ve just turned 21 last January 1. At my age, I already got work. I’m the eldest amongst the three of us siblings. Anyway, what was i thinking about?

Ummm… I thought Papa should no longer work. He should be with my Mama. My parents are good cook. They’ve been trying hard to put up their own business, an eatery. But we got financial problems as of now… (oh come on… like everybody does have) so they found it difficult to do so.

I earn not that much though others said I’m earning just fine for a fresh grad. Ok. But I can’t handle all the expenses alone so my Papa thought of going back to work. I feel sad thinking ’bout it. If only I can do more than just earn a few bucks, I would just so he won’t have to go back to work again and just be with Mama.

Ummm… where was I? Ummm… ok. While riding on a bus on our way home, my Papa and I talked about a lot of things. We talked about my plans and his plans. Papa said he would like my only brother to join the PMA. He said being a soldier is a tough job, and something that one should be very proud of. However, he was worried that politics and many other bad elements have stained it. He said soldiers are just used as pawns, sent on the first line of the battle with little ration, and yet, the high ranks are there at the back negotiating with the extremists on how much price they would like to pay for the grenades and (ummm… don’t know what types of guns rebels like to buy from the). Sad isn’t it? So Papa said he would like my brother to take up eletrical engineering. My brother’s fond of just experimenting on some things, say a mini-dynamo among others. I hope bro would consider that as an option later. He’s on his 3rd year in HS.

Another thing we discussed was about my work and about my plans. I said i’d like to join the SanMig workforce. Hehehe… but I know it would be like going through the needle’s eye. But Papa, like he’s always been, says I can do it. He’s positive about it. My staunch supporter. Tsk tsk tsk… i hope i can. And i said to him, before I turn 30, I should have studied abroad. And Papa says I can.

Dreams are for free, so I’d rather dream big. Papa knows that. ’twas almost Christmas eve, and i had a fine conversation with Papa. One of the best things God has given me, someone i can talk to about growing up.

[I got this from an e-mail sent to me by a friend. It made sense so i thought it's nice to put it in here.]

= Beauty of A Woman =

The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears,
The figure she carries, or the way she combs her hair.
The beauty of a woman must be seen from her eyes,
Because that is the doorway to her heart,
The place where love resides.
The beauty of a woman is not in a facial mole,
But true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul.
It is the caring that she lovingly gives,
The passion that she shows.
The beauty of a woman
With time, only grows.

After a month-long break… hehehe… i’m back. Alive and kicking. New Year’s resolution ko, i-career ko na blog ko. hahahha… jz kidding. Dami ko balak gawin this year, and do some other stuff.

Been away foe quite some time kaya heto, i’m busy picking up my memory kung ano nangyari while i’m hibernating. Pano, la money pang-internet pag nasa bahay kaya no blog din.

By the way, 21 na nga pala ako. Waaaaaaa…. tigulang na jud ko. Got 9 more years and iL be out na sa calendar… waaaaaaaa…

Isa pa, last year i wrote iba na work ko this year, but fortunatelt AND unfortunately, i’m still here sa office doing the same work, walking the same streets… seeing the same faces EVERYDAY!!!

I thought matutuloy yong Davao, di nmn pala. Balak ko punta ng Cebu, isa pa un. Puro na lng ako nito plano. Drama… drama… drama…

Tsk tsk tsk… pambihira…

Anyway, i’m planning to start dealing with life seriously. I’m 21 na so dapat lng. Medyo I had enough na rin sa mga kabuang nako but of course, i’ll still hang out with friends. But I’ve got to start saving money na para sa future ko. Si Papa and Mama ang adviser ko since birth… hehehe… and I’m glad they’re here to guide me [us].

That’s all for now. hehehe… expect me to get busy writing for my blog this year too. Hahhaa…(most outstanding employee… instead of working, iba inaatupag… boink!@^%)…

Ssshhh…ayaw saba! Hehehe…