10. Padulong nko [honey, i'm coming...hehehe]

09. Mingaw na ko nimo [honey, i miss you na...boinks]

08. Naa ra ko balay [honey, i'm in our house... ilara ko dots]

07. I’m with my friends [yeah sure... GIRL_friendS]

06. Sleep nako [i'll sleep na... may pa... ayaw na pagmata daun]

05. La ko kaila ato [I don't know her... ows? sure ka na ba?]

04. Lowbat ko [i'm lowbat... hahaha... wrong grammar]

03. La ko load [i don't hv load... tama na yan chikahi ko...oh pare ko tumagay na...]

02. La ko signal [i don't have signal... pagkabit na lng ka sa poste Dong]

ug labaw sa tanan [and most of all]

01. I LOVE YOU!  [ILARA KO... BULABOG GANING TIKA, BLOGAGS KA JUD]

but of course, to be fair… if boys can tell such lies… ehem ehem ehem… girls can tell just the same chuvashi. asuws, sa makauna lng pangatik ba.

"If a picture paints a thousand words, then why can’t i paint you?"

"Numb" by Linkin Park [Mike Shinoda, will you marry me? hehehe...]

I’m tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don’t know what you’re expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

[Chorus]
I’ve become so numb I can’t feel you there
I’ve become so tired so much more aware
I’m becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

see link: http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/linkinpark/numb.html

THE VERY EMOTION I’M FEELING RIGHT NOW… I DON’T EXACTLY KNOW WHAT TO DO… LOTS OF THINGS TO THINK ABOUT… THINGS I DO NOT REALLY THINK I’M VERY MUCH CAPABLE OF…

BOSS SAYS "YOU’VE GOT TO BE LIKE THIS, LIKE THAT…" WHEW! I WISH I COULD HAVE BEEN SUPERWOMAN BUT I AM NOT.

THE "OPPOTUNITY" HE IS GIVING ME… THE FAITH… THE THOUGHT THAT HE BELIEVES IN ME HAS TOUCHED MY HEART.  I BELIEVE IT WOULD BE A GREAT CHANCE TO BE GIVEN THAT KIND OF HUGE RESPONSIBILITY [managing the office..darn! i'm too young to die. se, i'm just 21... huhuhuhu]

YEAH, I CALL IT AN "OPPORTUNITY", NOT SOME SORT OF A PROBLEM… RATHER A CHALLENGE.

I AM AN AMBITIOUS WOMAN [charmos... woman my ass... oh come on... bata pako paleessssseee...] I WORK HARD.  OTHERS WOULD SAY I’M A PERFECTIONIST [sorry to disappoint you guys, but i'm not]. I BELIEVE IN EXCELLENCE. THAT WHAT HAS BECOME OF ME HAVING SPENT MY ENTIRE 4 YEARS IN COLLEGE AT XAVIER UNIVERSITY. [Atenista sd ko ba... sounds like a speech. sumo!] I DO STRIVE HARD TO BE THE BEST THAT I CAN BE [but to those who know me, tapulan japon ko. pasaway japon. hehehe... research nato dnha. rmbr?]

BUT THEN AGAIN, I HAVE THIS TENDENCY TO BECOME SO LOUSY. LOUSY AS IN SOMEONE WHO’D ESCAPE FROM RESPONSIBILITIES.  I DO GET TIRED OF ALWAYS BEING SO RESPONSIBLE. I DO GET TIRED OF BEING SO SERIOUS ABOUT SOME THINGS. I DO GET TIRED OF BEING THE "MAGNA CUM LAUDE" OTHERS KNOW OF. [hey i'm not bragging OK?... true man sd... uh-uh...]

THE POINT IS I AM TORN BETWEEN TAKING THE OFFER [which i think is good] AND BEING JUST THE SIMPLE ME.  BOSS SAYS ONCE I’M UP THERE, I’VE GOT TO LEARN HOW TO ISOLATE MYSELF FROM THE REST. OH COME ON… I’M NOT USED TO IT.  ANOTHER ONE, I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT THEY’VE BEEN THROUGH SO I DO NOT KNOW HOW WILL I ATTACK THOSE KINDS OF COMPLAINS BCOZ I’VE BEEN COMPLAINING JUST THE SAME THINGS. I’VE BEEN THERE BEFORE AND UNTIL NOW, AND I’D SAY I’VE BEEN DRAINED… SO MUCH THAT AS SOON AS I GET ON MY BED, MY EYES CLOSE AND I START SNORING [but i got problems on how to sleep... pakamata ko kalit dli na daun katulog balik not unless kapoy jud kaau ko from work].

AHH AMBOT OI… LA KO KASABOT… I DON’T KNOW WHICH WAY TO GO.  BEEN TALKING ABOUT THIS WITH SOME CLOSE FRIENDS, ASKING FOR SOME PIECES OF ADVICE. QUITTING IS STILL AN OPTION [but i still think of it as a cowardly act... i've learned my lesson before... don't want it to happen again].

I DUNNO… BASTA OI… AMBOT… I’LL CROSS THE BRIDGE WHEN I GET THERE [hehehe... corny!] BUT I’M RUNNING OUT OF TIME. PERHAPS I’LL GIVE IT A TRY. DARN! IT’S LIKE SAYING I’LL GIVE IT A TRY HOW IT WOULD FEEL LIKE MA-CRAZY. 2oinks!

WE’LL SEE… MAY BE AFTER I’M DONE WITH IT, KUNG MAKAYA RA NAKO… IT WOULD BE ANOTHER GREAT ACHIEVEMENT ON MY PART.

MY PAPA SAID TO ME, "LIFE’S TOO SHORT, SO BETTER MAKE THE MOST OF IT."

YEAH, SURE… WHY NOT GIVE IT A TRY… HMMNNN… WHAT DO YOU THINK? [by the way, i'm thinking aloud here... trying to convince myself... waaaaaaaaaaaa... yati lang jud...]

Some thoughts i heard from my friends which made me think "Lagi ba?"…

• There isn’t any accident. Everything happens for a reason.

Story behind this:
    Naa mi sa greenwich ororama… while eating my spagh (my usual order… hehehe), mafia said na palit sa xa og ice cream. She was looking for a peso more to add sa iya money so that she did not hv to use her bill. Kakita xa peso sa floor… hehehe… iyang gikuha. Ana si mama jace: "hehehe…ako mana piso. bah, tanan jud lagi naa purpose. Nahulog na gaina para imong puniton. no such thing as accident."

    Hehehe… laya kaau na story bah? well, katulgon ko. la ko gana mg-chuva.

• To be in love is a matter of choice.

Story behind this:
    We were then talking about among "mga" laki sa kinabuhi… hahaha… tabla ra mi sa mga nagmaoy na sd. Actually, la pa ganing mi kainom, ngmaoy na. Hehehe…

    Well, I do agree ani na point. I don’t know… i hvn’t experienced yet na ma-love at first sight. Hahaha… no such thing as that. I’d say LUST at first sight nuon. It would be more possible then…no kidding. I would define lust as something more of getting attracted to how that someone looks like. More physical. "estrustic" kaau…(note: don’t try to research the meaning of "estrustic"…wala na sa dictionary… ako ra ana ngbuot2x… hehehe)

    Padayon ta… mao lagi toa. No matter how yagit a person is kung you choose to fall for him, mao na daun. But if you try to limit that feeling of liking him kay yagit ra xa para sa imong taste or he’s way down, down, down, down… below your standards, then more or less (i’d say more) na dli jud to nimo ma-love na person. More of convincing thyself that you got everything under your control. Hehehe… dapat lng!

• "The flower that blooms in adversity is the most beautiful and rarest of them all…"

Story behind this:
    A very dear friend of mine told me this. I’ve been complaining [a lot] about how difficult my work is and how draining it is. Then he told me this quote from the movie, MULAN

    I’ve always been fond of MULAN, he knows that I am. Glad to hear it from someone. Been inspired whenever I get to read / remember it. Been striving to be just like that flower.

• "This world is spinning around me, the whole world keeps spinning around me. All life is future to past, every breath leaves me one less to my last."

Story behind this:

   Hehehe… wala lng… nahan lng ko buot ka?

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Ummm… dnhe ta sa "some of the stupidiest questions I’ve thought of":

• Naay balbal na buang?

• Unsa imong gusto, kan-on ka sa piranha or sa iho?

• Kung i-rape ka ni Dingdong Dantes, ok lng or dli?

• Shud the balbal be given the right to live a life? Take note: they are still humans [human rights law bah]. And the right to live includes the right to eat food to survive. Hehehe…[dli ko nila apilon kaon kay ila ko human rights lawyer... hehehe]

Hmmnn… i think nalimot ko sa uban na questions. Hehehe… sa next quiz na lng toa. Nalimot jud ko.

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Happy HOLY WEEK… hehehe… joke…

Be going home on Saturday.

I can’t sleep…darn!

I can’t sleep…waaaaaaaaaaa……

I need valium pls…

I just can’t… pwd…

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Naa ko net cafe karon..i’m supposed to sleep after a night’s work but i just can’t. It’s 4pm now. I should hv been on my bed, sleeping…but seems like my system’s not getting used to working at night. Hehehe.. it’s been more or less a month now since we started night shifts.

I’ve fooling myself na gabii na (bisan udtong dako) just so i can sleep. But unfortunately, Morpheus seems so mean. He doesn’t want me to sleep. Huhuhuh…

Boss said inom na lang daw ko beer para makatulog ko. Hahaha… ehem! nice advice. Getting tempted to do it. Hehehe…wat tsu think… hehehe…

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Hmmnnn… almost Holy week na.. we’ve been planning to go to Davao during the break. hehehe… Holy Week ginawang summer vacation…can’t blame ourselves. It wud be the only days we can spend some time na mgalaag2x dw mag-relax. Been working real hard these days. Mabuang na mi hapit sa tight sked namo. Waaaa… as you can see (bisan wala mo kita), dako na samot ako eyebags… hehehe… hubagang ate oi. hahaha…

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The other day… last week…hmmnn… haven’t eaten dinner to i told boss gawas sa ko to eat. But wat happend?

Nag-inom mi sa ako officemates.. hehehe… pakaulaw lng…ngmaoy na sad ko. Bulabog kaau nga nakainom.

Twasn’t good i know… trip lng naman. Natinod-an na nuon. hehehe…

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Hmmnn… been busy working my ass off… wat to do? work and work..and work..yamats lng…

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Make use of the free time… dapat mglarag2x ko. hehehe…

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The other day… hmmnn… Monday…ng-dinner together mi whole family sa Jo’s Manok. So happy. Hehehe.. havnt been together for almost 4 months na… busy sa mga lives…mingaw na ko sa ila mama, papa, peslat dw iring

Twas a nice day. Had a meeting pero bahala lng. hehehe…

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I guess i have to sibat now and go back sa boardinghaus. Got to sleep. I have to. mag-imagine na sad ko nga gabii na. Fooling myself again. Yamats lng…

Waaaaaaaaaaa…. pls lang… I BADLY NEED TO SLEEP!!!