Hmm… looking at the PussyCat Dolls again… watching My Girl on YouTube… staring blankly at "my" PC…

It’s the 1st day of August. and iL be leaving our office today. my last day at work…

It’s already one minute past 12nn, "my" PC tells me so…

Hmm… telling me to leave now, eh? Been together with "my" PC for more than a year now. But I guess there’s a lot of PC out there that I will meet along the way while hunting for another job. But there’s no other PC like the one I hv been using ryt now.

I and "my" PC understood each other. Whenever I get tired reading through all those articles, and then editing… my PC also hangs up, telling me to take a nap [which always ends up sleeping for a couple of hours... i should hv fired myself earlier yah know...hehehe]

"My" PC knows all my secrets… she knows exactly what i am writing ryt now, and how i am feeling. I nvr thought she’d understand me. But we’ve been good friends.

Hahay…<sigh> iL miss you dear "friend"… pls do remember my birthday. i did put it on your alarm/schedule so you won’t forget. I will miss you. <hug my PC>

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Shall i go now? i guess i hv to. someone’s gonna scold me for no eating my meals on time. hehehe… bye bye… i hope i cud still go online and post some entries here on my blog. hehehe…

AJA! AJA! BASHYA!

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To my PC with love…

The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected. ~Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook

"What is there in Love without trust?" said Cupid to Psyche. I’d say there is none.

[kung walang trust sa counter, mag-frenzy ka na lang.]

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Being charged of lying before you’ve got the chance to defend yourself is a fallacy. Just remembered my Philosophy class when I was in college. Hehehe… What the hell was that called again?

An ad hominem fallacy consists of asserting that someone’s argument is wrong and/or he is wrong to argue at all purely
because of something discreditable/not-authoritative about the person
or those persons cited by him rather than addressing the soundness of
the argument itself. The implication is that the person’s argument
and/or ability to argue correctly lacks authority. Merely insulting
another person in the middle of otherwise rational discourse does not
necessarily constitute an ad hominem fallacy. It must be clear that the
purpose of the characterization is to discredit the person offering the
argument, and, specifically, to invite others to discount his
arguments. In the past, the term ad hominem was sometimes used
more literally, to describe an argument that was based on an
individual, or to describe any personal attack. However, this is not
how the meaning of the term is typically introduced in modern logic and
rhetoric textbooks, and logicians and rhetoricians are in agreement
that this use is incorrect.

As to my Philippine Constitution class, I can’t forget our lesson on "the one’s right against self-incrimination."

No person shall be … compelled in any criminal case to be a witness against himself

The Fifth Amendment protects witnesses from being forced to
incriminate themselves, and applies wherever and whenever an individual
is compelled to testify. To "plead the Fifth" or to "take the Fifth" is
to refuse to answer a question because the response could form
incriminating evidence.

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Hehehe… wala lang… tripping lang on discussing something a bit more complicated ideas other than talking about lots of nonsense.

I rest my case.

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How would one be able to combine Mythology with something as "technical" as discussing about logic or moreso, Philippine Constitution?

Hehehe… pag la ka lingaw, ana jud na. Talent. Hehehe…

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I heard this drama over the radio. "Jologs" kaau. Hehehe… I guess naa topak ang babae.

Note: The names of the character have been edited for the purpose of avoiding copyright infringement. Hehehehe…

Genebib: This is not wat i want, but this is the only thing i know that’s ryt…

Lando: Lagi ka naman tama e… whew…
Lando: Pero alam mo expected ko na na ganito e

Genebib: hmm… ain’t being self righteous Lando

LandO: pinapatagal mo pa… cge lang…

Genebib: hahay… if that’s what u think i’m up to, ikaw bahala
Genebib: ni minsan, i nv lied to u

Lando: sana nga… nakakasama lang sa loob

Genebib: cge, tnx for at least talking to me

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Drama… drama… drama… if you like to read more about the "tragic" lovestory of Genebib and Lando, feel free to contact the author for subscription. Abangan ang susunod na kabanata… Toinks!

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Hahay… I jz wanna rest. Give myself a break. Go somewhere. Duka beach perhaps. Stay there for at least a couple of days. Sleep a lot. Eat a lot [oink oink]… such an impossible life.

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Cheers! <bowing to audience>

Been singing this song since last week pa. I really like it. tsada au. sad nga lng… hahay… mahilig jud ko sawi na song mao cguro pirmi sad ko sawi. hahaha… cheers to that!

blah-blah-blah… full of bullshit! if i am to define MEN, they are so so indescribable. grrr… but i won’t hope they did not exist kay for sure wala tana ko karon. tnx to my Papa. and i love my brother, too. they are the only guys i know who love and care about me a lot. the rest? nah… nevermind about them. hay nku… tsk tsk tsk…

I Try Lyrics
Artist(Band):Macy Gray

Games, changes and fears
When will they go from here
When will they stop
I believe that fate has brought us here
And we should be together, babe
But we’re not
I play it off, but I’m dreaming of you
I’ll keep my cool, but I’m feigning

I try to say goodbye and I choke
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it’s clear
My world crumbles when you are not near [ouch! sakita oi]
Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it’s clear
My world crumbles when you are not near

I may appear to be free
But I’m just a prisoner of your love
And I may seem all right and smile when you leave
But my smiles are just a front
Just a front, hey
I play it off, but I’m dreaming of you
I’ll keep my cool, but I’m feigning

I try to say goodbye and I choke
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it’s clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it’s clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
Here is my confession
May I be your possession
Boy, I need your touch
Your love kisses and such
With all my might I try
But this I can’t deny
Deny

I play it off, but I’m dreaming of you
(but I’m dreaming of you babe)
I’ll keep my cool, but I’m feigning

I try to say goodbye and I choke (yeah)
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide, it’s clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
(when you are not near aahh)
Goodbye and I choke (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I try to walk away and I stumble (hey, hey, hey)
Though I try to hide it, it’s clear (sick of love)
My world crumbles when you are not near (your love, kisses and)

Goodbye and I choke (I’m choking)
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it’s clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
(when you are not there, yeah, yeah yeah)
Yeah, yeah..

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I’m so pink ryt now. so girlash. murag bayot. <duh!? so nonsense. jz that i cn’t think of anything so sensible ryt now. grrr…>

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oh well, fine… we went to Gaisano. we watched WHITE LADY. imbes na scary ung movie, mas joke mn nuon ang labas. cge lang mi tawa ni Roselle and Apple kay murag nagsayaw ang White Lady. hehehe…

i dont like the presentation that much… marami kc part na medyo dragging. but i like the story in general.

<andun kc crush ko… hehehe… JASON ABALOS>

balak ko dn manood ng SUKOB. hahay… bat ba nauso na nmn ata horror movies ngaun? d pa nmn Halloween. but for sure, iL watch SUKOB. hehehe… andun idol ko <si Kris> nyahahaha… toinks… i still can’t forget her Feng Shui kc. twas a nice horror movie. really scared me off. tnx to Lotlot and Lotus Feet. hehehe…

July 19, 2006

remember that entry i wrote about my first day as an English tutor? Oh well, today’s my last day doing that job. hahay… i felt a bit sad [yeah A BIT sad that's why i was able to drink 2 bottles of red horse beer...hahaha]

I never thought i’d love teaching. wala lng… that kind of feeling like you’re down yet you can’t explain exactly why. when i told my student the other day about me going to cebu, reminding her that i won’t be teaching her anymore, she told me, "Samok oi… samok." she was smiling though. i grew fond of her. jz amazed hearing a korean girl speaking in bisaya. but she did understand me, of why i have to leave.

we spent our last meeting discussing about her economics subject and her "Cupid & Psyche" project. yeah, supposed to be teaching her only English, but i did become her all-around teacher [well, except for Math, Physics & Chem... i bet she'd fail those subjects if she would insist that I teach her those... hehehe...]

i was so touched when she embraced me, thanking me for being her teacher. she did tell me, "teacher, i also have a good news for you. i got perfect score in economics." by the way, she also got the highest score in her English subject [that's grammar & literature].

i replied, "that’s indeed a great news. keep it up." and then she told me, "how can i if you’re leaving me already."

darn! while i’m proud that i was able to help her with those, i felt guilty deep down. i consider her not just a student but also a friend. magkapayo mi pirmi. hala lng tawa. she’s pretty smart too. and that makes me proud having worked with someone like her.

honestly, i only get paid Php70 per hour for the tutorials. i was a bit disappointed knowing that my resume is worth more than just that [aint being overly confident, or bragging, or something]. but love my work. and i’d say it wasn’t just about the money. i’d say i did gain more than just that given the kind of experience I had with her. it’s fulfilling something i never thought wud make me happy. it’s about proving to myself that i am capable of doing more than writing abstracts and editing everyday. it’s proving to myself na wala pa natay-an ako utok…

hahay…i’d miss Christine. i’d miss teaching. i’d miss hiking to-and-fro their house na grabe kaau kalayo from the gate. but it’s alryt now. i don’t feel depress anymore. i’m happy that i met her. and i am proud that she’s proud of me as her teacher.

she gave me a pair of earrings and i did give her a book [Mythology by Edith Hamilton] as my belated bday present for her. she told me she’d also be going to cebu next year. kitakits ara dw mi didto. yeah, for sure, i’L keep in touch with her.

hahay… i’m a tutor.

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hehehe… additional pa d i. when i came in to the office, walay mga people. they went home kay dugay kaau niabot ang mga ngdala sa yabe [apil nko...hehehe]. and so kami ra duha ni mama jace sa office. unofficial holiday. hehehe… we just decided na mgsuroy2x mi [gabiing dako!?]. we went to divisoria. then went to Mojo’s and ordered 2 bottles of red horse each and mani. wala nka party get-up pero just the same, we had fun. grabe na sayaw2x. then went out from the pub like nothing happened though gabarag na gamay. hehehe… and then we slept. watta nyt. huhuhu… i’ll miss CDO jud.

Been planning [again] to go to Cebu. darn! Pirmi na lng palpak ako plano. When will I ever get it right? Summoooooo…

Oh well, I am hoping that things would be fine for me there. I don’t know what lies ahead. Such uncertainty gives me such freakin’ pain in my head. Wala ko kabalo unsa mahitabo sa ako didto. Basin mgtala-tala na sad ko didto. Urrgggh!!! I hate such thing…

I’m giving myself some time to spend with my Officemates… waaaaaaa… i’ll be missing them a lot. You know that kinda feeling getting out from your comfort zone? I feel so panicky… yamats!

Things I’ll be Missing in CDO:

1. My Family
2. Officemates na buang… hehehe
3. My PC, my table, my chair…
4. the "Pabayo-San Agustin St."
5. the "Tian0-Dolores St."

6. WanChai [ukay2x ever...]
7. Pelaez Sports Center & Lauremar Beach Resort
8. XU [as in my skul]
9. G-Mall [Gaisano ba...]
10. FrontStreet

11. RS [RoadSide Eatery]
12. My chatmates [nyahahaha... buti na rin at ng makapagpahinga...  hehehe]
13. Listening to KillerBee
14. The SofaBed
15. My Music sa PC nko

16. Watching 24 Series, and other movies [including YouTube]
17. Divisoria [i almost forgot]
18. My Friendster
19. My bOss [i still hv to give him credit for hiring me]
20. My f*cking WoRk… [yeah iL miss it khit papano... been used to doing it]

1. I want to be a real cheerleader, as in lipad dun, lipad dito. I miss dancing.

2. I want to do shopping a lot.

3. I want to dye my hair [aquamarine or dark blue].

4. I want to be an inch or two taller [duh! 4'11" ra ko bayot...]

5. I want to be smarter, not just with books, but also when it comes to dealing with real life situations.

6. I want to be good at juggling n#mbers. [darn! bugok kog Math, Physics, Chem, anything basta naa numbers.]

7. I want to perfect my freestyle, and I wanna learn butterfly stroke [sa swimming nia].

8. I want to learn any martial arts.

9. I want to be financially stable already. [i know i have to work for this real hard...my ged!]

10. I want to have BF [na for real... as in for real...]

Here I go again… my ever bagutbot talent chuvanis. Waaaaaaaaaa……… (playin on my audio now is VINDICATED by Dashboard Confessional.)

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of which has caught my eye

And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated

[Chorus]
I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I’m right
I swear I knew it all along

—>>>>> nothin’ really… i just feel down [...again...]

—->>>>>>>but i’m fine i guess…hmmmm…

—–>>>>>>>>>just a bit confused. myt be kinda overanalyzing myself or the situation or that….

——->>>>>>>>>>i shudn’t hurry myself from fall…errr…yah know…ing in love (?!)

It’s funny how a man only thinks about the…
You got a real big heart, but I’m looking at your…
You got real big brains, but I’m looking at your…
Girl, there ain’t no pain in me looking at your…

                                                                    — WiLL.i.am (PUssYcat DoLLs’ BeEp)