Nov22,2007 around 9am…

I rcvd a very disappointing news. there’s only one word that’s gonna best describe how I feel ryt now — DAMN! but i know life sucks & shit happens all the time. so blame it to… yeah fine. i give in. i’d have noone else to blame it to but myself. my bad. so what’s the fuzz all about? nothing. i just feel so down. dats all. pera na sana, naging bato pa. dats wat has happend. grrr… i don’t know saan ako pinaglihi ng mama ko bakit late ako palagi. grrr… so stupid!

i almost got dat promotion, but just because of that stupid… oh no, lousy… yeah, lousy reason of being tardy (nalate kog 2-5mins 3x), i lost the chance of getting that BS!

i really am pissed off ryt now. so discouraged. so disappointed. so frustrated. and the person who’s supposed to understand me backed out. hahaha… funny. so much for a relief! wtf!

may pag mubuto! but bottomline is it’s all my fault, and i can’t blame anyone but myself for being damned so stupid and so reckless. i’m disappointed of of self a lot. i dont wanna go to work anymore. hahaha… but i know i’ll get through this. nakaya ko mga problema ko before, so no doubt i can beat this odd. duh! i made mistakes. i make mistakes. i will always make mistakes. i can do this.

< now playing… BIG GIRLS DON"T CRY by fergie> OST

this is one of those…well…amazing days that i feel so good. it only happens once in a…hmm…blue moon?sheesh…twas such a lousy description!boring but very….hmmm…i feel great!i feel so so just fine. murag naka-drugs.hehehe…

anyway, to make it "sabotable" why i feel this way, twas bcoz. grrr.. i’m having a real hard time expressing how i feel.working in a call center, agents really get so lucky if there’s something wrong with the system they’re using coz that wud mean they wont take in calls.mind you, u can try taking in calls even just for a day, i bet ul end up really exhausted.no kidding!

well, actually our program’s working sched got huge changes. no more calls on Sundays (which is ok, but really it doesn’t matter that much to me).and today (Nov4) is the 1st day that the new policy took effect.well, i came in the office 2am, supposed to go home @ 11am but we got a crew brief for slightly more than an hour so i stayed some minutes more in the office.

hmm…my teammates (who actually got different skeds… they got in around 3am, 4am, 5am, watever),they were only on auto-in til 11am?then, no more calls the rest of the shift. twas really a wow! so very light ang atmosphere sa office karon. the reason why i still stayed instead of going home ryt after the meeting.

aux4… log out! keyword to happiness for agents like me. it means no more calls. and it’s a Sunday. thank God it’s Sunday.

shit happens all the time but today’s not of of it. at least. my first time to feel great staying in the office, just staying in the office, doing nothing stressful. not talking to customers. not getting yelled at.

by the way, just met my new teammates. but this week, kingsley, one of my old pal is about to go for his exit. ani jud sa call center, ever changing. people come and go. u gain some, u lose some friends. but what’s important is u get to know more people. it’s the experience that matters, no matter how hard. no matter how it sucks. no matter what.

my life is really an adventure itself. my labyrinth. my odyssey. at ako ang bida